Holey

I'm so holey. I mean I have holes in me, deep down inside, in my innermost being. I don't really know how they got there. I just know that they're there...and they're raw...and I feel them a lot, more times than others. I heard a friend ask "Jesus to fill her holes." I think I get that more. I think I need Jesus more in my life than I've ever needed him before. Sometimes I just feel like a hole...so raw and fragile. Jesus, fill my holes. But, holes aren't such a bad thing. In the Scriptures, we're likened to jars of clay with a treasure inside. But, you see, if the jars of clay don't have holes in them, well, the light won't be able to shine through. I still want to be whole, secure, confident, but I also want to live out the Scriptures that say "God's grace is sufficient for me, His power is made perfect in my weakness, for when I'm weak, then I'm strong." The context of this verse is where Paul is asking that the "thorn in his flesh" or his "weakness" be taken away. This power in weakness is a tough pill to swallow. It's so against the thinking of this world. I'd much rather be viewed as strong, confident and secure, then to show my weakness and frailty all the time. But, here I am...as holey as can be. But there is One who also bore holes. Holes which were much more costly than mine. The Word also says, "Consider Him who endured such opposition from sinful man, so that you do not grow weary and lose hope." Your holes were much more costly than mine, but look at where they brought You? To the right hand of God! And look at where they brought me: hol-y. Now that's something to fill my holes! Thank you Holy Spirit!

Good things

Today I took three items to the dry cleaner's...I REALLY hope they're able to get the PERMANENT marker off of my new Old Navy Pea Coat and my favorite, long sweater from Eddie Bauer.

I also met with my counselor and we identified some more areas to focus on.

I also had a nice talk with Joyce and I shed some tears....and laughed too!

Good things...there are many more to come!

Love,

Grace

Returning to blogging

I've returned to grace and now I want to return to blogging. Writing has been a strength of mine since grade school, but I haven't made it a regular part of my life. Well, today I want to change! Words have meant so much in my life...from the "I love you's," of my parents to hearing the Word on Sundays, God has used words to bring so much life to me. And they have the ability to bring life to others also. I love the picture that Ezekiel paints in this passage, it sums up some of my feelings about the life-giving effects of words:

Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the LORD! This is what the Sovereign LORD says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the LORD.’”

- Ezekiel 37:4-6

So, Father, open my mind to understand your Word more fully and use these words of mine to bring healing and life to me, as well as to those around me. Thank you for your love and the love you've surrounded me with, I love you!